cdemerson's Blog

Wow, I never knew how divided and literally ignorant Americans was until I started blogging. I mean I live a typical secluded lifestyle I really dont interact much with too many people so when I posted the blog about my the gay lifestyle and the American vote I didnt expect to be bombarded with opinions of people judging whether it is a choce or not. I mean do you know how many teens and adults commit suicide or live a depressed life because of the harshness of society and the pressure to live a so called normal life? I was like that once. A young 9 year old strangely attracted to other girls and I wanted to die because my mom told me I was going to hell. Well you know what I am 23 now and I am starting to embrace who I am. I cant stress anymore because of what society has interpreted God of saying. Everyone who believes will read the bible and about 10 out of 10 people who do, will get a different meaning from it...

So you think you know how a gay person feels right? Wrong, you dont I will say once again Homosexuality is not a choice. You can not, and  I dont care how you try and interpret what the bible says because I can interpret it a whole different way and debate that is does not say that. I was raised in the church and I happen to know that the bible says a man sins with his heart not just his mind and body. So if I decided not to ever date a woman again. I would still be sinning because thats what I would ultimately lust after in my heart.

A message to the heterosexual readers. When you find yourself attracted to the opposite sex it comes naturally doesnt it? Yes, you dont think about it you dont question it, its just a way of life. Thats how its is when i look at a woman. I do not flaunt who I am or beg that you accept it. God knows my mind, and my heart I have begged and prayed to be delivered from this lifestyle that pushed a wedge between even me and my family who believe that I am choosing to be attracted to members of the same sex.

People go through life and every one sins. I do not appreciate being compared to a pediphile thats is not the same. A gay person is just the same as the next. We are human, we breathe the same air why do we get rediculed? I dont see why there is such a fuss about being gay. Its like being gay is breaking a law and we make laws to protect us? How does my choice to be in a relationship with another gay female hurt you? Ask yourself that. You, the people, do not choose what happens to me I answer to one God.

Then we focus on homosexuality and bring up the bible but what about you who have sex out of wedlock, who lie, steal, and cheat. Who lust, envy, and fight. And lets not forget who judge. Before you judge the speck in my eye, be sure you remove the log in yours. Remember that before you try and tell me how I feel and what God says is wrong. No one is perfect and being gay happens to be something I struggle with everyday. Is it right no its not, but as long as God still acknowledges me as his Child who the hell cares what the American people say.